This is pissing me off...

XMEN Ashaman DTM · 06-29-2001, 02:10 PM

Well, I'm taking a math class this quarter...something for fun, and I think I will need it later down the road. I mention this so that you guys know that there is some structure in my life.

Now, several things seem to be piling up:

-My uncle died a few weeks ago. Funerals are sad.
-My grades were not as good as I had hoped for the last quarter. They were alright, but for the amount of work that I had put in, I think I should have done better.
-I wrote a technical paper on using a fusion reactor as a propulsion device. It was 65 pages when I had finished. I spent a long time writing it, and was pleased to finally turn it in. Well, according to the professor that I was writing it for, it is not ready for submission. I expected this, but it is disheartening to have to rewrite the damn thing so that it can be put in something like scientific american.

-I was dating a girl for a while; we weren't in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, but we had fun. She graduated this June, and went to work in San Francisco; we broke it off. Sucks, but I'm dealing with this one okay.
-I wanted a job for the summer. Instead, I got offers for full time positions that I had to turn down, because they would have been pissed if I quit when autumn quarter started up again. (The best offer was a job at Boeing, doing RF antenna design and electromagnetic/charged particle simulations...53k a year.)
-The research job that I was holding in reserve if the summer job offers didn't unfold was filled while I was still waiting. This pisses me off, because it's my fault. >:
-I haven't enjoyed the sun lately, because I've been sick since last wednesday. I emptied my stomach yesterday morning, and had to miss a bunch of stuff. It's making me miserable. >:
-The more that I think about this stuff, the more that I realize that some of it is my fault, and it is making me angry at myself. I drive myself hard, and I found out that it was taking a toll on my system...my blood pressure was rising, most likely from stress. This pisses me off too, because it is so preventable. My blood pressure peaked at 165 / 105 at a pulse of 90 (rest), and just a few months prior it was at a relatively normal 138 / 76 and a pulse of 56 (rest). It REALLY pisses me off, because it's preventable, and it is my fault that it happened. (Though I did find that playing video games was a great release

)

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Overall, I'm pretty pissed off...mostly at myself for letting things get to the point where it affected my health. That's usually not like me. I am usually in complete control of my body and mind...I think that I was in control the whole time this was happening But due to lack of sleep and stress, it backfired.

Ghryphen · 06-29-2001, 04:31 PM

Sorry to hear that :/ Take some time and head over to Dick's

That's good for the system...right?

Stang · 06-29-2001, 04:59 PM

Hey Gryphon Im surprised you havent come in here and bitched about that Hazel Dell project that will never end

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Yes Asha head over to Dicks and get a shake

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Ghryphen · 06-29-2001, 05:00 PM

GAH!!!!!!!!!!! HAZEL DELL CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!

XMEN RudeJelly DTM · 06-30-2001, 08:03 AM

Asha...dude...watch the blood pressure. I speak from experience.

Cerberus · 06-30-2001, 11:16 AM

I know the feeling. Stress can really get to ya. Just take a day and relax dood. Go to snoqualmie falls or something. Hey you know we could have a Western Washington LAN. Hmmm if only we knew someone with a house and a garage in Everett.....

Aluscia · 06-30-2001, 12:30 PM

Asha... don't sweat it... God only knows how close I've come to destroying myself this past year. Everything is good.

Maz · 07-02-2001, 08:31 AM

Well it's the summer, so hopefully you have a chance to relax

DeLukas · 07-02-2001, 10:53 AM

When you hit bottom, the only way to go is up . . .now is that corny or what?

Aluscia · 07-02-2001, 11:34 AM

tee-hee... it depends on who's bottom you hit..

Dynomutt · 07-02-2001, 12:15 PM

BJ and Mustang, I think Jester was hinting toward you guys... if you have a LAN party I'll be there

It doesn't really sound like a bad idea.

Stang · 07-02-2001, 05:08 PM

OMG Dyno you really had to tell us

, like we couldnt figure it out with his clue

.

YOUR A DORK!!!

We'd love to have one just need to find a time when we can and all that stuff

.

It'll happen sometime

Maz · 07-02-2001, 05:21 PM

Of course, it has to be acroos the country, *sigh*

Stang · 07-02-2001, 05:23 PM

Who says your invited?

Maz · 07-02-2001, 05:38 PM

I was saying that on the behalf of your canadians THZ, Laur, Kitz, Tyguil, ...

06-29-2001, 02:10 PM	#1
XMEN Ashaman DTM Forum wh0re Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Seattle, WA Age: 47 Posts: 965	This is pissing me off... Well, I'm taking a math class this quarter...something for fun, and I think I will need it later down the road. I mention this so that you guys know that there is some structure in my life. Now, several things seem to be piling up: -My uncle died a few weeks ago. Funerals are sad. -My grades were not as good as I had hoped for the last quarter. They were alright, but for the amount of work that I had put in, I think I should have done better. -I wrote a technical paper on using a fusion reactor as a propulsion device. It was 65 pages when I had finished. I spent a long time writing it, and was pleased to finally turn it in. Well, according to the professor that I was writing it for, it is not ready for submission. I expected this, but it is disheartening to have to rewrite the damn thing so that it can be put in something like scientific american. -I was dating a girl for a while; we weren't in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, but we had fun. She graduated this June, and went to work in San Francisco; we broke it off. Sucks, but I'm dealing with this one okay. -I wanted a job for the summer. Instead, I got offers for full time positions that I had to turn down, because they would have been pissed if I quit when autumn quarter started up again. (The best offer was a job at Boeing, doing RF antenna design and electromagnetic/charged particle simulations...53k a year.) -The research job that I was holding in reserve if the summer job offers didn't unfold was filled while I was still waiting. This pisses me off, because it's my fault. >: -I haven't enjoyed the sun lately, because I've been sick since last wednesday. I emptied my stomach yesterday morning, and had to miss a bunch of stuff. It's making me miserable. >: -The more that I think about this stuff, the more that I realize that some of it is my fault, and it is making me angry at myself. I drive myself hard, and I found out that it was taking a toll on my system...my blood pressure was rising, most likely from stress. This pisses me off too, because it is so preventable. My blood pressure peaked at 165 / 105 at a pulse of 90 (rest), and just a few months prior it was at a relatively normal 138 / 76 and a pulse of 56 (rest). It REALLY pisses me off, because it's preventable, and it is my fault that it happened. (Though I did find that playing video games was a great release ) >: Overall, I'm pretty pissed off...mostly at myself for letting things get to the point where it affected my health. That's usually not like me. I am usually in complete control of my body and mind...I think that I was in control the whole time this was happening But due to lack of sleep and stress, it backfired.

06-29-2001, 04:31 PM	#2
Ghryphen THZ Founder Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: WA, USA Age: 50 Posts: 3,927	Sorry to hear that :/ Take some time and head over to Dick's That's good for the system...right? __________________ The Hounds of Zeus \| Allied Tribal Forces

06-29-2001, 04:59 PM	#3
Stang Team Captain Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Everett, WA, USA Age: 51 Posts: 3,859 Xbox Leaderboard: 1^st	Hey Gryphon Im surprised you havent come in here and bitched about that Hazel Dell project that will never end . Yes Asha head over to Dicks and get a shake . __________________

06-29-2001, 05:00 PM	#4
Ghryphen THZ Founder Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: WA, USA Age: 50 Posts: 3,927	GAH!!!!!!!!!!! HAZEL DELL CRAP!!!!!!!!!!! __________________ The Hounds of Zeus \| Allied Tribal Forces

06-30-2001, 11:16 AM	#6
Cerberus One bad mofo'n Hound Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Your Mom's House Age: 48 Posts: 1,319	Bro../ I know the feeling. Stress can really get to ya. Just take a day and relax dood. Go to snoqualmie falls or something. Hey you know we could have a Western Washington LAN. Hmmm if only we knew someone with a house and a garage in Everett..... __________________ Tribes:Ascend Play it today for free

06-30-2001, 12:30 PM	#7
Aluscia Emo Queen 1000th Thread Main Forum Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: In a subterranean complex. Age: 42 Posts: 2,346	Asha... don't sweat it... God only knows how close I've come to destroying myself this past year. Everything is good. __________________ Favourite Song of the moment - Pyramid Song - Radiohead

07-02-2001, 08:31 AM	#8
Maz Forum wh0re Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Canada Age: 42 Posts: 1,429	Well it's the summer, so hopefully you have a chance to relax __________________

07-02-2001, 10:53 AM	#9
DeLukas Forum Regular Join Date: May 2001 Location: Fort Collins, CO, USA Age: 44 Posts: 323	When you hit bottom, the only way to go is up . . .now is that corny or what? __________________

07-02-2001, 11:34 AM	#10
Aluscia Emo Queen 1000th Thread Main Forum Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: In a subterranean complex. Age: 42 Posts: 2,346	tee-hee... it depends on who's bottom you hit.. __________________ Favourite Song of the moment - Pyramid Song - Radiohead

07-02-2001, 12:15 PM	#11
Dynomutt Forum Regular Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Portland, OR Age: 48 Posts: 286 Xbox Leaderboard: 2^nd	BJ and Mustang, I think Jester was hinting toward you guys... if you have a LAN party I'll be there It doesn't really sound like a bad idea. __________________

07-02-2001, 05:08 PM	#12
Stang Team Captain Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Everett, WA, USA Age: 51 Posts: 3,859 Xbox Leaderboard: 1^st	OMG Dyno you really had to tell us , like we couldnt figure it out with his clue . YOUR A DORK!!! We'd love to have one just need to find a time when we can and all that stuff . It'll happen sometime __________________

07-02-2001, 05:21 PM	#13
Maz Forum wh0re Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Canada Age: 42 Posts: 1,429	Of course, it has to be acroos the country, sigh __________________

07-02-2001, 05:23 PM	#14
Stang Team Captain Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Everett, WA, USA Age: 51 Posts: 3,859 Xbox Leaderboard: 1^st	Who says your invited? __________________

07-02-2001, 05:38 PM	#15
Maz Forum wh0re Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Canada Age: 42 Posts: 1,429	I was saying that on the behalf of your canadians THZ, Laur, Kitz, Tyguil, ... __________________