[juxtaposedjoker]

When I was 15 (I obviously needed permission) I asked her and she said yes but to wait for summer. Then when summer came a few months later she said no. So to answer your question I asked a second time that summer so that we could go get it. Yet she had changed her mind and expressed a new found distaste for tattoos. It was interesting; a complete flip of idealogy.

Now, at age twenty, I can legally get one without her permission. I just have the sneaking suspicion that it will be no if I bring the subject up again in a serious manner.

I just want to shed some light on things before we go on. I help my mother out a great deal. It is just her and I and we take care of my grandmother. I do things to help out around the house that she admits that she would never have done at my age. My whole life circles around whether or not I'm needed to watch my grandmother and or help my mother. I do not mind doing this at all (though I did at first being a typical teen). They took care of me so I need to take care of them though it is hard when I see my friends come and go as the please. But that's life. I'm also a bright student who isn't wasting her mothers money in school and I work. I pay for a great deal of my own things and help out financially whenever I am asked to. Frankly, moving out and 'being on my own' would HURT my family because of the situation with my grandmother. Also, we moved into my grandmothers house from our condo so I am cleaning the condo for my mother but having to pay taxes on both houses, two nurses out of pocket, and my schooling is very finacially draining on my mom and she needs to work. So I have to be there to watch my grandmother whenever she cannot work from home. So if I were to strike out on my own she woudln't be able to claim me as a dependant and that would hurt her along with the fact she wouldn't have me to help take care of my grandmother, help pay for things etc.

Moving out, and totally being on my own etc wouldn't help the situation at all. Infact my mother bribes me to stay at home with kittens *points to the pic in yaks sig* She wants me to stay home so badly it isn't even funny.

So all I'm saying is this. Just let me have the freakin' tattoo cuz I do my best to help out and be a constructive member of the family. I had even saved for over a year to visit a dear friend in new zealand...my mom didn't say no but because she would be so stressed out (shes on lots of meds) over me being so far away I've canceled the trip just a few months shy of it. I do ALOT for my mother and my grandmother. So its like, I'm not a loaf ya know? Plus its my body...I'm paying for it...why can't I have it?

I just want two doves on my shoulder blades lol I wouldn't get anything werid and really throw my mother for a jolt because I agree to some extent. Once I'm on my own its time for the nipples to be pierced and for the mural I want on my back. For now, for the sake of my mother, I just want to start small.